I'm an unfinished science project alive well beyond my time driving north past the ghosts of love and the ones I've left behind bottled up and tied to the system the bed the bar the mobile floating home don't breathe, don't hold your breath you're only living, it's not the end and I don't love anyone more than I love not being alone I was talking to my therapist she asked me what I really missed and your name as in my mouth and I'm a coward and didn't let it out this is temporary we're all temporary hanging on by threads we're unravelling ourselves and the years count down to the last song that you ever felt and you ever sing and soon I'll forget how your skin felt how your skin felt and I don't love anyone but I guess I still love you but that ship has sailed and that thread's untied and now it's only miserabilia and telling you when I've cried over songs I haven't written and notes I never sang you say you love me but it's not the same you're sad like me but at least you know my name and I don't love anyone and that's just fine I've got time, I've got time, I've got time my thread is fine and fully twined and this ghost of coffee is enough to define the morning's optimism from the afternoon's relapse the morning's optimism from the evening's collapse and there's no coffee in the world that could keep me awake today and I don't love anyone that's not true I love everyone even you and probably you but especially you probably you but especially you probably you but I don't love anyone but you

your best friends are all your brothers and your sister died nine years ago your life is all catastrophe it seems like chaos is all you know you miss your little brother he's somewhere flying on a balloon and everything's collapsing you hope the world is ending soon but it's ok, you say yeah it's ok, you say cash that in and maybe you can buy another year or two if it's all you do you thought the dark was over but it was just a brief time at least you haven't died at least you're still alive alone in a bedroom, alone in your bedroom you're still alive everyone you've loved has decided you're not worth their time but you're alive but it's ok today yeah it's ok today I've got my fists up, I'm ducking punches my knees give out and I fall it's a fight I can't ever win so I don't even try at all I've got my fists up, I'm ducking punches my knees give out and I fall it's a fight I can't ever win so I don't even try at all and it's ok today and it's ok today

I'd like to know what you are thinking you know the words I'll write the tune this is the ship we kept from sinking and the water's closer than we ever knew "sorry..." "I'm not..." "one more day..." "I know you just need some space..." I didn't know that you were listening to all the words I sit down here and write catastrophe is just beginning and we never know if we'll get out alive "sorry..." "I'm not..." "one more day..." "I know you just need some space..." this the last time the last light is on its way let's make it wait

I told a secret you said to forget and then proceeded to linger on millions of faces in all different places and not a single one to stick around you said you're tired, and you're a liar you said the sun is falling down you can't believe it until you see it and then you hide it underground we are satellites circling through vacant skies falling from the sky leaving only empty night you painted circles over the morals that I left above where my hope drowned and now it's fading, as we're both waiting inside a tunnel back to know everything's failing, everything's failing everything's failing all at once you keep it spinning and I keep sleeping until we both learn our lesson we are satellites circling through vacant skies falling from the sky leaving only empty night you are a satellite circling through vacant skies falling from the sky leaving only empty night you are a satellite falling from a vacant sky we went and lost our eyes in the fading night and framing light of the failing sun of mine

I'm not here to save you I'm just trying to kill some time is that fine? whatever doesn't kill me won't make me any stronger there's no songs that can help me right now I'm tired of dying here alone as all my plans disappear and turn to stone one year spent waiting by the phone there's miles and miles within there's years and years behind me and you can't hear me I'm not here to save you I'm just trying to kill some time I guess that's fine and I'll scream so loud you can't hear me I'll scream so loud, I'll scream so loud

trade in your old clothes for ones that don't fit swallow the voices surrender to it sings us the songs you used to love sings us the songs you used to love sings us the songs you used to love about someone you used to love and never get better and never get better step on the landmine you set for yourself cut out your own heart put it on a shelf think of the worst thing you can do think of the worst thing you can do think of the worst thing you can do and find someone who likes it too and never get better and never get better I think it's coming around I think it's coming down I think it's coming around again and never get better never get better and never get better and never get better I think it's coming around I think it's coming down I think it's coming around again I think I'm coming around I think I'm coming down I think I'm coming around again

I keep waiting for the good days to see what's around I keep looking for the best days it doesn't matter now looked for you outside in the sideways but I can't make it out I keep asking myself on my best days "am I really happy with who I am right now?" and it's all we can do to be awake and it's all I can do to be real and it's all I can do just to stay alive when I don't know how I feel how I feel am I really happy with who I am right now? doesn't matter much doesn't matter much somehow am I really happy with who I am right now? doesn't matter much doesn't matter much somehow am I really happy with who I am right now? doesn't matter much doesn't matter much right now am I really happy with who I am right now doesn't matter much doesn't matter much somehow cos I'm alive and I'll get by at least I'll try I'm alive and I'll get by at least I'll try